Monday, 23 January 2017

Cinderella has a Masters Exam



This week is an important week.

I'm playing Cinderella in panto, rehearsing and performing at the theatre all week.

I have a 5 hour law exam for my Masters on Wednesday.

I'm staring at both of those sentences, letting reality sink in and I'm thinking yep, I am 100% mad. 

I'm also sat here thinking about the cheetah girls film which includes the line from a song I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody, to come and set me free.

And it's made me realise, that us women, well we can do whatever the f*ck we want. Maybe this post is unconsciously inspired by the recent inauguration and women's marches, but I'm proud to be an ambitious, 'nasty' woman. I'm proud to say that yes, I am doing all of that this week and will hopefully smash both things. 

And you know what, gender inequality may still be present, but I'm proud of every single woman who marched over the weekend, and I'm proud to know so many amazing women - bloggers, nurses, directors, health care assistants, friends.. you're all amazing.

So this is just a small reminder that if Cinderella can complete a masters exam, then you can also go and do whatever the f*ck you want.

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Tuesday, 17 January 2017

Moonwalk 2017

A couple of months ago, I overheard a few women in the office I previously worked at, talking about how they'd signed up for the London Moonwalk. For those who don't know what this is, it's where women walk the London Marathon during the night, usually wearing pink bras, all in aid of raising money for breast cancer research.

Naturally, my impulsive self kicked in and I signed up immediately.

'It'll be fun. It'll be a good laugh. It's great for charity.', I told myself when clicking the sign up button.

I still think it will be all of those things but I'm realising that 26.2 miles is an awful long way and I'm perhaps a little crazy for thinking it'll be just fun. It'll be hard, cold and exhausting but I'm never one to shy away from a challenge and shall be doing this anyway.

But in order to do this, I do need to raise £100 and therefore need your help. If you could donate even the smallest amount or share this post, tweet about it.. anything(!), then I would be forever grateful. We have all been affected by cancer, whether it's ourselves, a relative, friend or stranger. Each one of us has a story related to the illness, which is why it's important that I do this walk.


Thank you so much in advance, it means the world xx


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Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Empathy & Vulnerability

I've been doing a lot of reflecting recently and that's partly because my masters course is all about being a reflective practitioner. I've been reading about vulnerability and empathy - both of which have given me food for thought.

As someone who prides themselves on having their shit together, I find it very difficult to accept when I feel anything less. Throughout my illness, I'd always seen vulnerability as weakness, and received empty compliments for how determined, strong-willed and disciplined I was. It's ironic that the key qualities of anorexia are idolised by so many, yet when an anorexic is complimented, it often pushes them into a more vulnerable place.

I don't think I'm alone in saying that I dislike feeling vulnerable but what I'm beginning to acknowledge is that feeling vulnerable is key to living a wholehearted life. Without vulnerability, we can never really connect with anyone, feel joy, love or trust. And, I'm positive that most of us want to feel those things, and therefore willing to sacrifice their strong, thick skinned self for these? It's weird because most of us seek out vulnerability in others as the initial way of properly connecting. We admire vulnerability and view it as bravery and courage in others, but in ourselves it's considered weakness and unattractive. Perhaps, we are a little harsh on ourselves.


When someone is vulnerable, it's our ability to empathise that probably makes them feel better in that moment. As a professional, I want to be able to empathise, not sympathise. I want to be with a person who needs my help and let know them know that I'm there with them, it's okay and that I understand. It's okay if we don't know what to say or do because what matters is that we are present.

'RARELY CAN A RESPONSE MAKE SOMETHING BETTER; WHAT MAKES SOMETHING BETTER IS HUMAN CONNECTION' - Brene Brown

Empathising also means being vulnerable. It's about connecting with that same emotion within ourselves and letting that person know that they are not alone.

So, if recognising my own vulnerabilities will make for a better practitioner, then perhaps it's not as bad as I (we?) first thought. 

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Sunday, 8 January 2017

Disney Wishlist





Pandora Tiara Ring // Disney Phonecase

I am on a spending ban. An actual spending ban. By this I mean no clothes because clothes are predominantly the problem. 

So naturally, all I want to do is online shop. I swear there is something in the whole 'when you can't have something, it becomes much more attractive' because everything is appealing to me right now.

Instead of buying anything, I'm creating wishlists instead, starting with a Disney themed one as the panto is coming up and I have to milk being a princess for the rest of the month, as it'll then be over!

I think I am going to get the Cinderella Funko Pop as a little momento once it's all over though. I used to have a thing with them, then went off them, but now I'm loving them again! How cute are they?

I also love the squad goals sleep tee - definitely don't need it but it's nice to dream!

Oh, and those phone cases are like 99p so definite bargain there if you're after a new one.
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Friday, 6 January 2017

Surviving January

It's 6th January and I've not posted anything this year. It's been niggling away at me, hence this post.

I find it weird that January starts with full forces of motivation to better ourselves, yet it's actually a horrible month. There's no festive excitement any more, so we're left with dark nights, cold & miserable weather. I'm also adding assignment deadlines and an exam into the mix too. I just find it all a bit dreary.


I think it's not helping that everyone has gone back to work too, and I'm stuck at home revising/going over my panto script, and let's be honest it's all a bit dull.

There are a few key things I've been doing to try and survive the January slump.

Fresh Air 

I've forced myself to go outside the house every single day this week, either for a small walk or trip into town. I know, when it's freezing and miserable, it's the last thing anyone wants to do. But, the exercise and fresh air can be good for your mind and give you a break from whatever you're doing.

Plan Something to Look Forward to

I'm yet to do this, mostly because I'm looking forward to panto week but little things like seeing my friends who live miles away or a potential summer holiday really helps to spur you on.

Routine

Getting up at a reasonable time, eating well, keeping hydrated, getting dressed.. all basic things which are easily forgotten when you're lacking willpower or motivation. Just keeping a routine really can help your body know where it stands.

Be Kind

To yourself. It's okay to feel low, unmotivated or uninspired. I know the weather/cold really doesn't help me, and I know I'm not alone. Social media makes thing seem like everyone is being creative, doing their thing and loving life but in reality, it's highly unlikely. Be kind to yourself and remember you aren't alone.

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