Wednesday, 26 October 2016


When I was 16, I auditioned for the part of Liat in the musical south pacific. Let's just put it this way, I didn't get the part because I was essentially told I was too fat, but instead came away with a 4 year battle with anorexia. Of course, that's over simplistic and it wasn't THE reason, but it stuck as a huge trigger in my mind. 

Fast forward to October 2016. I've rejoined a musical group, and I've been there long enough to audition for a part again; the show is Cinderella.

I LOVE musical theatre. There isn't nothing I don't enjoy more than watching a huge production on stage, singing along to the songs or dancing to one in my bedroom. It's not the coolest of things but it really do love it.

I also love being on stage.

I love it when the lights shine upon you, the buzz from the audience, the way the microphone is taped to your face because people are coming to see you. You actually do feel like a superhero. I sound like I'm exaggerating, and when those nerves hit you pre-show, it's all pretty questionable, but I'm going to stand by what I say.

Last night was the Cinderella audition. I've spent weeks debating whether I can even audition because a) what happens if I'm rejected and the same thing happens? and b) I'm up against the same lady who was cast the part I wanted when I was 16. Dejavu or what?!

Tears, nerves and fear aside, eventually my stubbornness surfaced and I auditioned. Not the best audition; the song I was asked to sing was not how I wanted to sing it (thanks nerves!), however..


Feels so weird to even write that but you know what guys? Feel the fear and do it anyway. I've learned something too - it's not about how many times you fail, the important thing is that you do not give up.

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