Wednesday, 29 July 2015

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Yesterday I watched a programme called Before I Kick the Bucket, which was about a 39 year old woman named Rowena, who has terminal cancer. The programme is only 30 minutes long, but follows Rowena decide how to spend the time she has left on this earth.

What I thought was most interesting was that Rowena questioned whether we should have a bucket list or not. I guess the idea of a bucket list immediately creates pressure to do certain things within a certain time frame. If we don't complete those things, then we're disappointed in ourselves and begin to generate guilt or self loathing; neither of which are particularly brilliant.

But actually what was most thought provoking, was that I think what people regret more. It's not the things they haven't done or the places they haven't seen, but more the time they've not spent with loved ones. People are about feeling and emotion, we want to feel love and a sense of belonging, whether that's to a family or friendship group. Most of us are happiest when we're with the ones that we love, so maybe we should be replacing bucket lists with simply spending more time with those people.

I've been working in my new job for a tiny five weeks now, and already three people have sadly passed away. Two of those individuals came to the company whilst I've been there, so I've essentially been one of their full time carers. And you know what? Watching someone die is not easy but it does remind you that life is precious and life is short.

And for that reason, I love my new job.

I love knowing that I am making a difference in someone's life when they need help the most. I love knowing that every moment spent with someone dying, means I am that little bit more grateful to be alive.

All of these people have one thing in common too, they want to be at home with their loved ones. Not bungee jumping or traveling the world. Sure, we can do those things too if we want to, but maybe bucket lists aren't so crucial after all.
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Monday, 27 July 2015

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Last week I started to think about money quite a lot, and how I strongly believe that you can never buy love, friendship or happiness, or even bribe someone into liking you. In fact, there are so many things that money can't buy such as morals, intelligence, common sense and health (the list is actually much longer..).

I received some lovely gifts for graduating last week, and as ungrateful as it may sound, I just got to thinking that I don't need lavish gifts to know that people are proud of me or want to wish me well. All I really ever want, is a bit of thought and to know people are there to celebrate with me. The things that money cannot buy really..

Happiness is something that cannot be bought. Sure, we can buy shoes, clothes, houses, cars etc and they'll make us temporarily happy, but the wealthiest man is the one whose children run into his arms even when they are empty. Mostly because happiness usually costs time and love - concepts we can invest without owning much money.

So, maybe this week we can all spend some time and love on the things we love, and we'll all become a lot more wealthy.
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Wednesday, 22 July 2015

I'm going back to old school blogging. The one's in which you just write because you feel like it or want to document something for yourself to look back on, rather than trying to write because you feel you need to or feel pressured to produce content 3-4 times a week. That's not really me, and as I now work crazy hours, I want to go back to how I originally started - just writing about my life and how I was at that particular moment in time.

Yesterday was my graduation, perhaps one of the proudest days of my life, and I wanted to collate some pictures on this little space of the internet. I had a really lovely day, but I'd be lying if I said it was all absolutely fantastic. I shared the day with my family, one in which is slightly mix 'n' matched now like many other step families these days. Unfortunately, it became too intense and I couldn't help but feel let down and disappointed by some immature behaviour displayed by some people. Maybe I expected too much and did wrong by having everyone there, but then again, I know I'd want to see my own child graduate with a first class degree. Perhaps we shouldn't judge everyone by our own standards.

That aside, I felt amazing. I was proud of myself and absolutely loved wearing the cap and gown. If When I decide to do a doctorate/PhD, I know I will soak up every moment in that outfit! The whole graduation day was a great experience and I loved being able to take photos on the beautiful Edge Hill campus. It just feels so odd that I may never go again!

I guess it's the end of an era now though and come January, I'll be off to Sri Lanka on a new adventure. I'm definitely looking forward to seeing what the graduate life has to offer.

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Wednesday, 15 July 2015


Perfect Match by Jodi Picoult

Nina is both a dedicated prosecutor and Nathaniel's mother, she loves both her career and her five year old son equally. However, she Nathaniel stops speaking and it turns out that he has been sexually abused, Nina decides to take the law into her own hands. She has seen so many child molestation cases fail both the child and their parents, that she just cannot let her son go through the trauma of taking his abuser to trial..

I genuinely cannot say anything else without ruining this book! However, I can say that I read this book pretty much front to back, without putting it down. It's been a long time since I've found a book which keeps me reading, but this is why I love Jodi Picoult. She never fails to write something great! I should also mention that I got this for £2 in a charity shop which is such a bargain. I am a bit of a book snob, but I've taken a leaf out of Josie's book and found a book I wanted whilst giving money to charity. Win, win situation really?! If you're looking for a good book full of suspense, look no further!
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Monday, 13 July 2015


I saw this whilst scrolling through instagram and thought it was perfect to share on here as a bit of motivation to begin a new week. Whatever you do this week, try and do it to the best of your ability and gain some fulfilment from it. Anyone can go through life, just doing enough to get by. Well, we only get one shot at life, so don't waste it - be awesome :)

Hope you all have a great week!
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Friday, 10 July 2015

One of my favourite recipes at the moment is banana pancakes.

Everyone loves pancakes right? Well, these ones are slightly healthier than your average sugar and nutella coated pancake because they are made from two (three if you want) healthy ingredients, bananas and eggs.

Pancake Benefits
Bananas are one of my favourite fruits and are really good for you. Firstly, they are a great source of energy but they are also a great source of potassium which can improve your cardiovascular health (heart and blood pressure), as well as bone health. Additionally, they are high in manganese, which can improve your digestive health and immune system.

Eggs usually get a pretty bad rep for being high in cholesterol. However, despite the cholesterol in eggs, they are really nutrient dense. They are a really great source of protein, especially for those who don't eat meat, and they are rich in vitamins B2, B6, B12, A, D, E and K. Oh, and they are a great source of zinc, iron and copper too!

So yeah, these pancakes delicious AND pretty amazing for you.


2 Eggs (I've used British Lion Eggs* but any are fine), 1 banana, 1/2 teaspoon baking powder (optional) and oil of choice for the pan!

Directions - you can make one big pancake or a few smaller ones

1. Peel the banana and mash it up in a bowl/jug.

2. Add the eggs and beat with the mashed banana. Also add the baking powder here if you prefer a fluffier texture.

3. Add the oil/butter/spray to the frying pan, then pour the pancake mix into the bowl and fry the mixture, just like a regular pancake. Remember to flip half way through :)

4. Plate up and add toppings of your choice! I love natural nut butter or fresh fruit, but the choice is yours ;) For this batch, I managed to make two smaller pancakes which do look a little rustic, but oh well!

5. Enjoy!
*This post was written in collaboration with British Lion Eggs
but all  opinions are my own and if I didn't
like it, I wouldn't write about it.
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Sunday, 5 July 2015

This post isn't a lifestyle, review or photo kind of post. It's an old school, sit down and just type sort of post because on Friday, I officially found out that I'll be graduating with a First Class Psychology degree. And you know what? It's not everyday you can write that so I wanted to make the most of it.

I hope this doesn't come across as arrogance but I am actually really proud of myself. I went to uni 3 years ago, and I said to my grandparents 'I've come to Uni to get a first'. They looked at me and replied with 'well, you can certainly try', knowing full well that it's not all that easy. And it's not really, I've had to work my arse off to get it but I'm so pleased that I have. Not only that though, I've turned my life around completely and recovered from an eating disorder, which makes me even prouder.

I think what I've realised is that if you put your mind to something, anything, and if you really want it badly enough, you will achieve it. The mind is a very powerful thing, and in most cases, it's mind over matter.

If you work hard and don't give up, you can do anything you want to.
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Friday, 3 July 2015

Earlier this year, both my family moved house and I moved back into my family home after 3 years of Uni. As much as I like the new house, it ALL needs redecorating. The kitchen was done a few weeks ago but last week, it was time for the bedrooms so that means, my room!

It's going to sound really boring but I had literally just redecorated my room in my old house before we moved, and because I didn't live there, I didn't get chance to enjoy it at all. So, I've had exactly the same thing! I've gone for quite a nautical/minimalistic theme with 3 light blue walls and 1 wall with brick wallpaper, which I love. However, this post is more about the accessories I've made to put on the wall!

After scanning pinterest for weeks, I finally decided I wanted to recreate a photo type washing line kind of thing (do they have a name!?). You can buy them on the internet pre-made but the prices ranged from £25-£50. No thanks! 

I made this one myself :)


This really is easy. I ordered the pegs and wool from eBay, ordered some photos to be printed and bought some postcards from Paperchase, which every blogger has, I know. You're then free to peg it all together and hang it up on the wall - I used two nails and tied the string at each end.

Considering I've probably saved about £30, I'm really pleased with how it's turned out!
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Wednesday, 1 July 2015


Travelling to Infinity by Jane Hawking
I think we all know or have heard of the famous scientist and genius, Professor Stephen Hawking? Well this book is written by his first wife, Jane, retelling her story of what life was like with Stephen for the 25 years of their marriage. If you don't know, Stephen is an extraordinarily, intelligent man but suffered from motor neuron disease (MND). You may have seen the recent film The Theory of Everything, which is the film adaptation of this book, and along with one of my patients, prompted me to read this book. However, I was quite surprised by how different this book is to the film.

If you have seen the film, you'll know that Jane and Stephen's life is portrayed as difficult but quite beautifully. They married, had three children, and Jane cared for Stephen (who accepted the care) every single day. However, I was quite shocked to learnt that actually, Stephen wasn't really a very nice man, demanded constant attention, and wished to be treated far superior to anyone else. He put himself and his own needs before his children's, placed unrealistic expectations on Jane, refused outside care for a very long time, and never really showed any gratitude. Throughout the whole book, Jane remains loyal and faithful to Stephen, doing everything she could with little thanks, to then eventually be left for one of Stephen's nurses, Elaine. I have nothing but respect and admiration for Jane, who clearly dedicated her life to Stephen.

The book also discusses the devastating symptoms of MND, which was really interesting, but mostly leaves you sympathising with Jane, who at times, was left extremely lonely and suicidal. It is a very good book, but is a little bit long and drawn out, so requires some patience. It's probably not for everyone but is good if you like this kind of thing!
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