Lazy Afternoon

Saturday, 26 July 2014

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Week one is rapidly coming to an end, and I think I can safely say that it has been one of the most extraordinary experience of my life. I have definitely learnt that I thrive off new experiences and travel. The feeling of not knowing what is going to happen next is some what constantly exciting.

It was been an exhausting week. Being surrounded by enthusiastic children all the time is cute but by 10pm I have been in bed asleep. Not being able to walk to the toilet without being hugged, waved at or greeted will never get old though.

This afternoon, I am sitting at school whilst the teachers attend an English conference. It is a welcomed break, even though I am scorching from the heat. I really am so happy here and I am proud of myself too. I've tried everything food wise and have fallen in love with thai dessert. The only battle that remains is with the local people telling me to eat more, despite being very full. Apart from that, I am fully embracing listening to my body. I guess that's what I ultimately came for. The get my life back.
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First few days

Thursday, 24 July 2014

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I don't have much wifi here but on Saturday, after 23 hours of travelling and only 4 hours sleep, I arrived in Thailand!

I've only been here for a few days and I am already on love with everything. My host family are amazing, they treat myself and my partner like their own daughters. The school is quite privileged, with the most friendly children. We arrive at school to hugs and greetings which make us feel like royalty.

The food is also amazing. I've tried everything from squid to coconut cream to dragon fruit. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm eating but it tastes amazing, especially thai desserts. It also feels like I don't have an eating disorder any more. I can't be in control or count calories so I've been learning to listen to my body and embrace life. It's amazing.

So far, I've been to the local town, seen the white temple and eaten dinner right by the most amazing view. It's everything I expected it to be, and more.

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The day before..

Thursday, 17 July 2014

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This week has been a week of preparation, finalising plans and goodbyes as tomorrow is the day I actually get on the plane to Thailand. It seems so weird to think that all the fundraising and planning has finally come to an end, and I'm about to jet off around the world. This morning I packed my suitcase and backpack, printed my boarding pass and now have a few hours to relax before heading out for an evening meal with my family.

I have been overwhelmed by generosity this week, given by my friends.  I have been treated to a coffee date, dinner and tickets to see Wicked the musical (which is my favourite, ever musical), cards from work colleagues, and hourly reassuring phone calls and skype conversations. Each one bringing enjoyment and encouragement, of which means so much to me!

I have also spent the majority of my week accompanied by crippling anxiety, often keeping me awake at night. Flying alone is something that scares the living daylights out of me, and it is something I have to do tomorrow. 

What if I get lost? What if I miss my flight and get stranded? What if?

Well, what if? It's highly unlikely really, especially as I'm one of the most organised perfectionists to walk on this planet. I have been reminding myself that if I let fear ruin everything, this is the life I will always have. I have a good life but there is always something bigger and better out there. The world is a huge place, with so much to experience and see.. I can't confine myself to the same, safe places. 

I sit here this afternoon, both scared and excited, and it's my choice as to which emotion I allow to take over. Right now, I am unbelievably excited for tomorrow. After all, life begins at the end of your comfort zone..
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Clearing out & Preparing

Monday, 7 July 2014

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Before returning back home for this summer, I had begged my Mum to redecorate my room. She agreed and said I could do it all myself before heading off to Thailand - but the reality of that has meant my room still looks the same. However, this weekend she did promise me that if I spring cleaned my room from top to bottom, getting rid of everything I don't use or don't want, then she would do it when I am away :)

Today, I did just that. I have been through every single draw, nook and cranny! I have filled 5 bin liners with junk that I have been hoarding onto for years, and put some things up into the loft. I was quite amazed with my 13 year old self - 8 shopper style bags (including the jane norman bag) really is a record, along with 12 scarves that have rarely been worn, and not forgetting the hundreds of plastic, tacky bracelets that I used to wear.. With all of this gone, I actually have about 3 draws that are now completely empty!

Whilst clearing things out, I've been putting aside a few bits and pieces for Thailand. I managed to find coloured card and paper for the classroom, along with a photo album which I have filled with pictures of my friends and family, to show my host family. Obviously, when you do a huge spring clean, you come across old photos and diaries too. Some I've loved finding and looking at, but some things have happily been destroyed. My favourites are from a trip to Florida for my brother's 5th Birthday..

I am so glad that I stumbled across these because with only 12 days to go until I fly, I would be lying if I said I didn't have some anxiety surrounding the food. But these pictures remind me how good a trip can be if we choose to embrace it. Sure, I was only 7, and yeah I was a little chubby (but cute?), but I loved my life. I wasn't even aware diets existed and I enjoyed everything about that trip. I know that Thailand can be the same, if not better, if I let that happen. And I also know that if I hold back and play it safe, I will regret it for my entire life.

Although it will be a challenge, I am prepared to face it head on and enjoy every single moment, just like my 7 year old self would.

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The Color Run

Saturday, 5 July 2014

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You know when you just have a good day and you want to document it? Today was like that for me :-) 

Once again I've been in Manchester, but this time to take part in the Color Run with Beckie. I was woken up quite early but didn't mind too much as I am kinda beginning to think that the earlier you get up, the more of the day you have? (Not too early though...) My Mum came along on the train with me, and kindly held our bags whilst we ran around the course. If you've never heard of the Color Run, it's basically 5k with 4 paint stations, and at those stations, you get covered in paint! Luckily we had good weather and it made for a really fun race. Beckie had work straight after, so my Mum and I went to pizza express for lunch and then wandered around Manchester. I shall add that I did this whilst rocking the paint all over my face and clothes look! I managed to get a backpack and coin purse in the sale, for my Thailand trip (which is only 13 days away), and we had a really good day :-) 

Oh, and here are the stupid photos from today. I look bald on one of them, which my Mum found hilarious. I think I've only included it on here to make you lot smile...

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