Friday, 12 October 2012

A New Friend :)

I knew that coming University with an eating disorder would present new challenges and hurdles. I mean, EVERYONE that moves away from home for the first time, is going face new challenges. So of course, there have been days where I have felt like sitting in my room alone, completely isolating myself from the world - maybe even seeing a glimpse of depression (something else I have on my long list (; ), but I know I have to fight it so much harder because I really could become seriously ill.
I can honestly say, that I have met one person in particular who has helped me - probably without even realising - and that's my room mate, Yan (who is on the youtube video). She said to me 
'I can advise you on anything, but it's up to you whether you choose to act on it. I don't care what you do or don't do'
I know that some of you might think that not caring is a bad thing, but I know what she means. And, she's right! No one does care if I eat a chocolate bar here and similarly, no one will really care if I sit in my room, quite literally wasting away. She has really opened my eyes, even with fashion. I used to love clothes shopping, and when I was morbidly obese, it didn't stop me from wearing hot pants. Sure, it probably wasn't too attractive but I didn't care! Now, I hide underneath baggy jumpers because I'm so thin, but Yan has really taught me to just wear what I want and like.
There are some days where I know I have to be with someone else, or I may sink into negativity - so I went and sat with Yan last night, and she taught me how to make the little Origami swans and even some Chinese! I know it's nothing to her, but her company really is helping and inspiring me to recover - and for that, I am really grateful :) 

This seems like an unusual type of post for me but this is a blog about my life and recovery, so I guess this is part of it! And Yan, if you read this, thank you :) I hope we're friends for a long time!

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