Tuesday, 17 July 2012

Health Update

It's been a while since I've said anything regarding my health and perhaps I should have, because things have changed SO much! For the first time, in a long exhausting year, I finally have some energy and feel positive! Obviously, this is because I have changed the amount I eat, but even a little bit more goes a long way. I finally have a proper appointment with specialised medics and things feel like they're moving forward. Sure, I have such a long way to go, but I have realised that my friends, family and my future goals mean more to me than any pound, size or calorie - and I am more use to the people I love if I have a clear head to think and have the energy to support them!
It's really strange because my weight has hardly changed at all, despite doubling my food intake, showing me that I have drastically underestimated how much my body actually needs just to LIVE, let alone gain any weight. And ironically, I want to gain weight now too. Being skinny is not glamorous. It's hard work, exhausting and not a life I would recommend. I despise the media for promoting it because honestly, it's not even attractive. If someone is healthy and confident then THEY are attractive - and that's the life I am aspiring to now.
I'm by no means cured but these last two weeks have been the hardest yet most rewarding two weeks of my entire life and now I am more determined to live a happy life, looking beyond the imperfections. It is those imperfections that make us individual, and I wouldn't want it any other way! :-)

1 comment

Anonymous said...

I used to find a great sense of control over micro managing what I ate but your right, it is o exhausting. At the time it was the only way I thought I could cope with things but it was one more drain on my energy that I didnt need.
Glad you're feeling better xxx

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