Monday, 4 June 2012

'Are you eating?'

Those three little words almost hit me like a tonne of bricks, today. I walked into the kitchen, where compared to where I was previously sitting, it was extremely bright. I started talking to my step-father and my eyes went really funny, causing me to shut them for a few seconds and actually left me feeling rather faint.
Are you eating?

Now, how does someone with an eating disorder actually reply to that? Obviously, I replied with a reassuring 'of course' and mentioned the dramatic difference in lighting. I'm not believed - I know, but maybe I've bought myself time or he'll forget about it. 
But actually, it's not just that any more. I am really finding it difficult to want to get out of bed and do anything as I fear I'm not taking any of my revision in and it's a huge waste of time. I have even lost interest in the only person I talk to openly. 
My own company seems to be the only thing I can cope with!

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Ellie said...

Hi Samantha,

I know this is a really personal subject so i won't say too much....just that there's a good website http://www.something-fishy.org/
it's recovery focused, so you might find it helpful.

Take care xx

Samantha Betteridge said...

Oh, that is so nice. Thank you! xx

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